Torn Apart; for now.

I feel like knocking myself on the wall now.
What's all the talk about the degree that I am planning to pursue;
When I have yet to start A Levels!

If not for the form given by college;
I wouldn't have actually think so far in the future.

I feel like a dungu in Pure Mathematics lectures.
(This is how small I feel)
Simply because I did not do Add Maths in high school.
The syllabus for Pure Mathematics in A Levels starts from Add Maths.
There is no lecture on the basics.
I have yet to meet Miss Angeline for help; will do soon.

I almost broke down during the Pure Maths lecture today;
Simply because I have not felt the way I felt once before.
It is mind blowing to realize that I actually do not understand a thing.
It is as good as attending a class in like, French or Spanish.
That is exactly how I feel in Math.

It kills to feel totally blank.
Not being able to understand what on Earth the lecturer is saying.
It hurts to know that I am the only one without Add Math background.
Is it really all worth it?

To know that I am aiming for a certain field;

A Degree in Journalism, Media and Cultural Studies;

Which is offered in Cardiff University, Wales.

To know that Daddy and Mummy prefers Oxford and Cambridge;
And media studies is not offered there;
What am I to apply there?

Honestly speaking, given a choice I would do media studies;
Over political science.

Yes, it is an interesting degree.
It did catch my attention when it was first mentioned in the interview.
But it doesn't appeal to me the way media studies does.
I do not have that thrilling adrenaline rush when I talk about it;
The same way I feel when I talk about media studies.

How much more perfect could a degree be;
Than the Degree in Journalism, Media & Cultural Studies?

I will have a stinge of journalism;
I will learn about mass communication;
I will study a few aspects of psychology;

It is practically everything I want to do!

I will say this much;
Learning and sitting in Pure Maths lectures is a humblizing process;
I do acknowledge that.
However, is it really what I want to do?

Ultimately, Mathematics and Accounting;
Which one of those actually would contribute to the degree studies?
Technically and ironically, none.

I admit that I am taking Mathematics as a precaution;
JUST IN CASE I apply to the top ranked universities;
They would prefer traditional subjects.
Which are History, Economics, Mathematics and English Literature.

On the contrary, am I aiming for Oxford or Cambridge?
They are the exceptional universities that require traditional subjects.
In the first place, they do not offer the degree that I love.

I will seek my answer in Bali.
Promise.

Will be leaving to Bali on 1st July, Wednesday; 10.45am flight.
Will be back from Bali on 5th July, Sunday; arriving at 11.25pm.


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

Tribute To MJ.

The Twin.

Chelsia Ng.

Singing for MJ.

Yasmin Yusoff.
The Super Mum.

The Super Dad & The Little Hero.

Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

Broadband!

I have once suggested to God Mum not to use Maxis Broadband;
And look what I have now;
A very beautiful white Maxis Broadband mobile modem.
I take back my words. :D

The twin went home with me for the weekend;
Had a jolly good time;
Sleeping at 4am;
Going to 3 malls in 3 days ; Summit, Sunway Pyramid & 1 Utama.

We watched Transformers 2 today!
Superbly worth watching indeed. :)

And the best has yet to come;
After dinner upon going to the carpark;
We went for the concert/roadshow Tribute to Michael Jackson.
It was emcee-ed by Yasmin Yusoff, with tons of impersonaters!
Chelsia Ng was there too.
Photos can only be up earliest tomorrow, or Tuesday;
'Cause I didn't bring the USB for Pinky.

The tribute was amazing.
Candles in cups up in the air;
Signing of a huge poster that is to be sent to the US;
Fans of all ages singing to his songs;
Truly a momento.

A legend who made a difference;

Left a mark in the world.

Michael Jackson ; 1958-2009.

Thank you Mummy and Daddy. :)

Bali on Wednesday!!!


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

Back for the Weekend.

The twin and I slept at almost 4am in the morning.
Instead of watching Desperate Housewives;
We ended up talking and talking and talking.

That explains why the twin is snoozing now.
*cough*piggy*cough* :D

I finally got the medical report errands done.
Thank you Mummy!
For spending the time to run the errand with me. :)

Last night the twin, WJ and I went to Summit;
Just to get dvd's and DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES!!
Then headed to Nirwana for mamak;
Which we then went back there again after Mummy and Daddy came home.
To celebrate Yee Xin's birthday.

I introduced the twin to Jocelyn aka Jojobell.
Which technically remind me that they're actually so alike! :D

Tonight; Sunway Pyramid!
Hopefully I'll get a pair of pumps;
At least a proper shoe for college.

The trip to Philippines that has been scheduled 8-12 July;
Has been cancelled.

Due to the fact that Philippines is heavily infected with the H1N1 flu.
It seems that anyone who comes back from there;
MUST be home quarantined for 1 week.

Aside from the fact that I will have lectures;
I am certainly not willing to miss ANOTHER week of lectures.
So yeah, I won't be going to Philippines.
So sorry Ivan! :(
Just know that I miss you.

Summit yesterday;

Sunway Pyramid today;

1 Utama tomorrow, to watch Transformers 2! :)

Bali 1st July;
Alyssa's birthday on 30th June.
I'm considering the idea of throwing her in the pool at the condo;
What do you think? Heh.


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

Twin.

Friday is finally here!
Am back home for the weekend with Trixia the twin. :)

It's 3.20am in the morning now.
Still yapping.
Heh.

ee ping is in the toilet, twin taking over HEH HEH HEH.
she wants me to type something. All i have is zzzzzzzz. YAWN.
OH she's back. i heard the *flush*

Goodness.

Snoooooooooooooze time.
Goodnight.
Till, erm; the morning comes.
Which is technically soon.
And that is if we actually wake up before noon. :)


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

French Revolution.

OHMYGOSH.

Assignment on French Revolution.
Wait, it's a test.

A TEST IN FRENCH REVOLUTION.

On the first week of lectures.
Oh boy.

By the way;
Twin = Trixia. :D

OH YEAH!
THE DELL LAPTOP ARRIVED! :)

Okay, I'm starting to crap.
'Cause I don't have the luxury of time;
And a sane mind at the moment.
HAHAHAHA.

Be back soon;
Manifesting WIFI at the apartment;
Soon!


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

First Night

Sasha Yeoh Eeping has officially shift into the apartment;
Pelangi Utama Condominium.

I had orientation yesterday;
Had briefing for all the subjects, etc etc.
A Levels Arts, 2 years;
That's what I'm studying here in KDU College.

Looking at the choice of subjects;
I'm looking into taking History, Economics, Law and Maths.
Yes, I'm taking History.
World history and US history baby!
Hopefully no more Malaysian perjanjian-perjanjian history. :D

Trixia, a future classmate of mine is most likely to take similar subjects;
We took a cab from college to 1 Utama after briefing;
Had lunch & shopped!
Managed to get the single bed sheet, pillow case, pillow;
& a new pair of jeans!
Finally after so many years. :)

Mummy picekd us up from 1 Utama;
Went home, packed, had dinner;
Packed only for 4 days;
But looked as though I packed for weeks!
I only brought 6 shirts though.

Trixia was so nice to accompany me the whole day!
Thank you hunnn. :)

TRICIA LEW;
If you're reading this;
My soon-to-be classmate's name is pronounced just like yours!
Hehehehehe.
God knows that I miss you! :)

The first night at the apartment can be described in 1 word;
SILENCE.

My 3 housemates slept at 9.30pm;
Right after I got back to the apartment & settled down.
So I sat at the table in the hall;
Started journalling, writing, texting till 11pm.

After talking to Daddy on the phone;
Though just a brief conversation about normal stuff;
I felt rather off centred.

Emotions were gushing;
Thank God Buddy was texting me.
For once in my life, I actually felt home-sick.
Ohmygosh.

Managed to turn off ang sleep at about 11.30pm.
Got up at almost 7am;
Got ready & went downstairs to wake for the bus.
Many of us, the JPA Scholars went for the first lesson of the day;
English Literature.

Miss Hema was overwhelmed from her 2 student class;
To a almost 30 students class.
She gave us a short poem assignment as a test there and then.
The poem was so, different;
That 5 of us left class in the first 15 minutes.
Many others followed suit.
I'm sorry Miss Hema!
But I'm not taking English Literature.
Thank you for the paper though. :)

I'm off for Malaysian Studies class now.

Meeting Elvanna at Ikea later in the evening! :)


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

Hectic Fun.

With Mum Dehyana & God Mum.

Sasha Yeoh Ee Ping drove to Lucky Valley, Pahang yesterday.
After checking into the Pelangi Utama apartment;
(Found out that my roommate's name is Vivien just like God Mum;
And also from Melaka!)

Started my journey at about 3.30pm;
Reached Lucky Valley at about 6.30pm.
Started raining as soon as I reached.
Had dinner;
And guess what?

Deep inside my heart;
I was hoping that I would be able to do Breathworks last night;
My wish came true!
And boy was it an amazing one! :)

Today's workshops were as amazing.
I managed to share;
And also gave everyone the Baba cards from Puttaparthi.
And Mum Dehyana's gifts.
And God Mum's gifts.

I am truly, truly glad and appreciative that I made it.
Though merely a day;
It was truly worthwhile.

A session of a marvelous Breathworks;
Amazing sharings;
What more could I have asked for?

I left at 5ish, had to make my way back.
The drive back was rather comtemplative.
Not in terms of thinking;
But in terms of digesting everything that I learnt in that 1 days' session.

I'm secretly looking forward to Bali!
I apologize for living in the future for this.

I came back in time for a Father's Day dinner with the family.
Met up with Daddy, Mummy & WJ at Las Carretas.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDY!
And all the Daddys' in the world. :)

Met almost ALL the regulars there.
Tunku Razman, Encik Ramli, Mr Franklin, Mr Monty, Tuan Balan;
All really, extremely nice people.
As well as all my buddies there.

May was working too!
And the Buddy, Marvin. :)

As such, I shall end this post for now.
I have college in the morning;
1st day, ORIENTATION.

I'm excited.
And thrilled.
And nervous.
And everything I felt when I went to school at 7 years old :D


Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping

Grace & Gratitude.

Let the signs remind you

We are passengers

Let the signs remind you

To surrender

Let go and Let God

My shadow self.

Amazingly, I actually named my shadow self Sasha.
It was in 1 of the Make Love Your Ministry workshops;
Learning to embrace my shadow self.

The phrases at the beginning of this post;
Is lyrics from the song 'Let Go, Let God' by Olivia Newton-John.
From the album Grace & Gratitude.
It was a gift from God Mum.
I've been hearing it at least 100 times over.
No kidding. :)

Had lunch with May Hoe;
A very enlightening lunch that was very much needed by me.
I'm extremely grateful for God's amazing arrangements.
She reminded me;
Being a student of 'A Course in Miracles';
I have the knowledge to know what to do.
With the knowledge, I have no reason to misbehave.

Thank you, Mummy!

For buying the Dell laptop.
And for enquiring about the Myvi.
I'm extremely grateful!
(Hope the Myvi isn't too long a wait tho.)
Okay Sasha, you're asking for too much now.
Shut up and wait. :)

Tomorrow;
College registration.
KDU College, A Levels.
Pelangi Apartments.
Lucky Valley.

My medical reports came back;
I am certified medically fit.
Thank God! :)

Having dinner with Jo-Lynn;
Finalizing the JPA scholarship forms tonight;
Then supper with Jo-Lynn and others at Murni;
(I've never been to Murni before, so yeah)

Then SLEEP. - Mandatory rest. :D

P.S
To all JPA Scholarship recipients who're from outstation;
I salute you.
I truly respect your determination to excel;
And your willingness to travel all the way here.
I am here, ever willing to be of any means of help.

I am extraordinarily grateful for getting KDU College;
A place just minutes away from home.
It could have been me shifting to another state.
I am thankful and most appreciative.
Thank you God.

Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping